And I wonder if you know what it means to have your dreams come true

Sometimes I wonder whether I made the right choice when it came to choosing to go to school in Los Angeles. There's always that nagging question of "what could've been?" had I gone somewhere to the East Coast (Boston). What would've happened had I gotten into Juilliard my first attempt? Would I have chosen to leave the community of friends, colleagues, and mentors that had shaped me into the person that I am today? Would I be willing to leave my comfort zone and start over from scratch in a far off distant state? Sometimes I think, yes, I would be willing to do that. I want to leave Los Angeles behind. I want to start over again. I want to get out of California for a change of pace.

And then I look at the family that I've been blessed with in southern california that I think to myself- no way would I give that up. The experiences that I've had in Los Angeles over the past four years have proven invaluable. The triumphs, the failures, and everything in between, they were all part of God's plan of getting me where I needed to be.

And now I'm at the point where I'm about to make that transition once more, this time into graduate school. Maybe now you can understand that, inwardly, this is a difficult time for me. I want to leave, but at the same time I don't.