And I wonder if you know what it means to have your dreams come true

Sometimes I wonder whether I made the right choice when it came to choosing to go to school in Los Angeles. There's always that nagging question of "what could've been?" had I gone somewhere to the East Coast (Boston). What would've happened had I gotten into Juilliard my first attempt? Would I have chosen to leave the community of friends, colleagues, and mentors that had shaped me into the person that I am today? Would I be willing to leave my comfort zone and start over from scratch in a far off distant state? Sometimes I think, yes, I would be willing to do that. I want to leave Los Angeles behind. I want to start over again. I want to get out of California for a change of pace.

And then I look at the family that I've been blessed with in southern california that I think to myself- no way would I give that up. The experiences that I've had in Los Angeles over the past four years have proven invaluable. The triumphs, the failures, and everything in between, they were all part of God's plan of getting me where I needed to be.

And now I'm at the point where I'm about to make that transition once more, this time into graduate school. Maybe now you can understand that, inwardly, this is a difficult time for me. I want to leave, but at the same time I don't.

good times =)

Was going through some old xanga entries that I've long since privatized when I found these. These are clips that I took of the David Crowder Concert that happened at Flint Center so many years ago.


Video Sharing at DropShots.com




Video Sharing at DropShots.com

Kinda makes you feel insignificant.

Joke's on me

It's been pointed out to me several times recently that the only times that I'm really funny is when people are laughing at my expense. Slightly disheartening, but I'm made of tougher stuff so it's all good. People who can't deal with that kind of stuff either A) take themselves to seriously, or B) need to be more secure with themselves. This blog post is one such tale.

It's early Wednesday afternoon, and I'm thinking to myself what a beautiful day. I open up my e-mail inbox to find a message from Dan Matsuoka saying that he'll be speaking at CCM-Irvine. I begin wondering if I have any appointments that I need to keep later in the afternoon. I probably didn't think that hard on it, because nothing popped up in my head. Cool, I thought, I think I'll go down to Irvine today then! Excited, I call up a friend whom I was closer to back in high school to see if she wanted to meet up beforehand and make plans with her.

I leave around three in the afternoon, which means that traffic hour has started again and it'll take me about an hour to get there. About a quarter of the way in, I realize that I have a music history paper due tomorrow, that I had totally forgotten about and therefore not started yet. Ugh, I think to myself, guess I'll just pull an all-nighter then. I typically don't even start really working until late into the night anyway. For those who don't follow my twitter, below is my initial reaction.

dsheu fail. im halfway to irvine when i suddenly remember that i have a paper due tomorrow...about 6 hours ago from txt

to which I get this reply on my facebook.

Kirstie Lee

HAHAHA poor you ...

5 hours ago · Delete

I keep driving down the 405, and eventually pass through Long Beach at around 4 PM. At this point, I suddenly realize that I have a chamber coaching with Prof. Sutre at 6 PM. At this point this is when I start freaking out, because you can't just cancel these kinds of thing on the fly, unless you're indisposed to the point of being hospitalized. I was considering this option as an alternative to driving all the way back to LA.

dsheu omg just remembered i have a coaching with prof sutre at 6, double fail. back to la i guess, was already in like torrance too
about 5 hours ago from txt

followed by a nice reference to Arrested Development

dsheu "and thats why you always make a schedule" -bluth
about 5 hours ago from txt

Kirstie Lee

danny sheu i think this is the funniest youve ever been

4 hours ago · Delete

Thanks, Kirstie.

Sadly, I turn around and call my friends who were waiting for me in Irvine that I would have to cancel our plans. I then spend the next two hours frantically trying to get back into Los Angeles. And now here I am, sitting in the main study lounge of Covel procrastinating some more before I begin my paper on Felix Mendelssohn's Jewish identity in 19th century Germany had an impact on his music. Which I know nothing about.

Sometimes I just love my life.

(this is not one of those moments -_-)

Photography lessons

Someone please teach me how to take good pictures. Like how to adjust for lighting, angles, KEEP STILL HANDS.

I want to take pictures of my foodie adventures but the pictures wouldn't do the food justice.

Also, someone please teach me to remember to take pictures before I devour the food.